met Christ as a Person at a moment when I needed him in order to live, and at a
moment when I was not in search of him. I was found; I did not find him.
was a teenager then. Life had been difficult in the early years and now it had
of a sudden become easier. All the years when life had been hard I had found it
natural, if not easy, to fight; but when life became easy and happy I was faced
quite unexpectedly with a problem: I could not accept aimless happiness.
Hardships and suffering had to be overcome, there was something beyond them.
Happiness seemed to be stale if it had no further meaning.
it often happens when you are young and when you act with passion, bent to
possess either everything or nothing, I decided that I would give myself a year
to see whether life had a meaning, and if I discovered it had none I would not
live beyond the year..."(continue)